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My prayer

2010-12-29T07:09:00.000-08:00

When God takes something from your grasp,
He's not punishing you,
But merely opening your hands to receive something better.

Everything will be alright in the end.
If it's not alright, it's not the end.

Thoughts- for now

2010-12-27T08:29:00.000-08:00

They say nothing is impossible.
I disagree.

Believing is overrated.

I wish..
Do I still have the right to?

I hope..
Will it ever come true?

Hoping against hope.

I really want to still believe.

Writing is simply therapeutic.

Help?

As days became months

2010-11-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

Anorexia, Insomnia
You wake up to flashbacks, memories
Wanting to get rid of them
You tried for days, weeks then months
Attempts were futile
You want to tell someone about it
But you know it's getting annoying
You cry alone

But the worst part?
You know that person doesn't care anymore

You know this is pathetic
You tell yourself everyday

A Mess

2010-11-28T08:18:00.000-08:00

Things that I wish I could change.
The images, the thoughts going through my head again and again.
The flight of ideas.
Is it possible?

I wish I could say I still believe.

2010-11-08T05:43:00.000-08:00

Take a cement pill and harden the f**k up

Moral of the Day

2010-11-04T04:43:00.000-07:00

Ignorance is bliss.
Do not look.
Do not even peep.
Then you will find peace.

Do not check your bag while stepping into a lift.
Or else something important might fall right into the tinny weeny gap in front of the lift.
And be buried in the lift shaft forever.

I'm in a weird mood state right now.
Bitter memories.
I'm going to look at this one day and laugh about it.

shit!!

2009-01-28T21:28:00.000-08:00

oh shit!! shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit....dere wil nvr b enuff 'shits' to describe how shitty d situation is, boo

WHEN WIL I EVER LEARN??!!

God, help me!!

Bah..

2009-01-16T07:18:00.001-08:00

Juz tryin to write something to past time while waitin for tis korean series to load, it's seriously takin a long long time..some1 shud/muz do SOMETHIN wif streamyx

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

CNY's approachin, no new clothes tho. i normally spend d 1st day in my jammies anyway, lol. y? juz a tradition.

ahhhhh, i'm bored. old news, yeah. n i feel lazy, oldER news.

What shud i do tmr? exercise? actually do some work? gardening? hmmmm, limited choices. exercise is a must, another 5kgs to lose. how long is tat goin to take? Jus d thought of it is killin me. y is practically every1 on d street stick thin?!! well, mebbe not stick thin but u get wat i mean. boo, wish i m in d 18th century when ppl appreciate voluptuous za bos.

i need shoes. din find any tis hols. bah. i wan my gladiator sandals!!!! --> random thought....

back to d korean series earlier. it's boys b4 flowers, korean version of f4-meteor garden. m expectin quite a few rolled-eyes now. but it's supposed to b good, jumped to d top of d list on mysoju.

another thought, may 2009 b a good year!! =D yay, n double yay!! tis year's gonna b great!!

may my wishes come true tis year. pray hard. woohoo~

grr, random thoughts r runnin thru my head atm. for eg., my library books r wayyyy overdue, a month, to b exact. shud i cut my hair?- d last haircut was a traumatic exp. wil i finish my hwork b4 i get back? gotta ask my agent if they r done repairin my bathroom. i hafta buy an umbrella b4 i go back. how long wil it take to lose another 5 bloody kgs?? n some ques tat haf been buggin me for days, but don't feel like voicin them, tried b4, ppl juz think tat i m bein paranoid or crazy. down wif these insecurities. arrghhh. d list can go on n on but d rest of my head shall remain private.

juz noticed. i'm rambling. oh dear. n i'm talkin to a computer. i need to straighten things out. shud juz get over d worryin. i need to read a motivational book. dun laugh coz i'm doin it rite now. it's supposed to b a good book--> the secret.

which reminds me. my korean show. Ciaoz peeps.

Pride & Prejudice

2008-12-25T02:48:00.000-08:00

One of my favourite books..

Hate it when i m a victim..

Ppl tend to misunderstand when they think u r "different"

Juz a harmless little comment may be misinterpreted as an insult

U!! (some1 i reli feel like slappin right now, but wil get over it by tmr)

Don't let pride get in the way,

Don't let prejudice blind u.

Oh, n merry x'mas every1=) rejoice!! coz today's a day of forgiveness n pure, beautiful thoughts, ironic=S

but i feel better already..haha

LOST

2008-08-07T06:53:00.000-07:00

i know..it's been long...........like reli reli long............. again=P

& millions of thanks to those ppl hu actually log on to my blog more than i do, u know hu u r----> Mr. Moose

well, it's been 3 wks into my semester n i stil dunno wat i'm doin/supposed to do.
FYI, m currently doin a project for my Bach. of Med Science degree.. so no tests, no exams till june next year..YES!!!!!!
BUTTTTT, gotta submit my thesis in May.

hmmmm..accordin to sources, tis is supposed to b a break, or a honeymoon yr, slack off yr, laid back yr....or wateva, but y do i stil havta drag my lazy ass to the hosp every single day??!!
hmmmm..it's not as bad as it sounds, but without knowin wat i m actually doin, the day juz passes by like tat, n it's time to go home again.

Sneak peak into my daily life:

9/10/11am- depends on wat time i get up, it's reli hard to get out of bed nowadays..izzit me?or izzit winter?
10am-12pm- sit, procrastinate, drink coffee/hot chocolate (mind u, i juz discovered a super duper, awesome coffee machine in the tearoom..but imagine the CALORIES!! as gary puts it, "it's all goin to ur asssss"), then procratinate again, sittin in wif the oncologists (tip of the day: urinalysis in baby/kid language--> 'do a wee-wee')
12pm-1pm- actually doin somethin, readin, buggin some ppl to fill in questionnaires on the phone (some1 actually hung up on me today, great..)
1pm- lunch!!!!
2pm-5pm- doin my lit review-i actually spend a fair amount time doin work, drink MORE coffee/choc, online shoppin/msn (can't help it, since i can't log on to fb or youtube, some1 was nice enuff to block it from the hosp's internet)

Swot vac---> AAAARRRGGHHGHGHG!! MAY DAY..

2008-05-30T20:50:00.000-07:00

halo..peeps!!long time no c=)

anyways, it's swot vac now n last day of uni juz ended..byebye sem5..halo examss T_T

it was the last time tat all 300 meddies wil be together at the same place (i wil miss u all!! xoxo=P), except for graduation!!

Anyways, here's some random pics (from easter-now)
well..been to mornington twice~ it was simply beautiful, bout 1.5 hrs drive from melby
wif all the beaches n stuff, apple farms, fishin etc..

also went on an roadtrip to grampians durin easter, went hikin n stuff, obvious from the pics, tat was exhaustin, but wif the special company, it was rather memorable i muz say..(hehe..u know wat i mean=P)

Pls bear wif me for the random, unarranged stream of photos, might b somewat confusin..
it's swot vac after all..BUT, i promise to come back wif captions ASAP (don think tat wil b so soon tho=P, after examsss~)

N thanks millions to those beautiful ppl out there hu made tis semester so wonderful, interesting, fun, & much much.... better than i can ever imagine!!

ouchhhhh!!

2008-03-31T05:08:00.000-07:00

my old com explodeddd..

oh, n does anybody noe wat would happen if some1 drank an expired ribena?? =))

Starstuck

2008-03-11T04:21:00.000-07:00

Was strollin down southbank one sunny afternoon.

Got a oh-so-refreshin gelati from trampoline. (Il dolce freddo, u r stil my 1 n only luv, but too bad u weren't open on monday)

Then, noticed some dudes holdin these huge reflective thingies by the Yarra River.

it turns out tat they were shootin tis Bollywood@Tollywood film..(it's called a telugu film so i guess tat= tollywood rite?? at least google says so)

Accordin to a fellow onlooker, apparently the actor n actress r HUGE in India---> Ilyana n Telur/Telu?? Rings a bell??

* their new found no.1 fans

The actress is indeed a beauty. as for the actor, hmmmm..u can decide for urself. but i thought Pn. Zakinah has better taste than the producers/ppl hu chose the cast=P

oh, n here r some passable pics from the camwhorin session (inspired by the tollywood show, hehe):

*boo..i look like a gold fish..

& for those hu r wonderin how my foot is, here's a sneak peak..

2nd week of uni~

2008-03-01T01:47:00.000-08:00

Hi ya peeps!! i noeeeee..been a long time since i updated, but anyways..

haih, uni started for 2 wks d, it's the beginning of the usual goin-to-uni-comin-back-n-procrastinate routine. wel, tis sem is bout microbiology..ooooooooooooooooooooohh, interestin no?hmmmm..so far it only made me suspect tat i hav salmonella in my food n perhaps UTI (those hu played bridge wif me last nite, u understand=P), wonder how paranoid i can be at the end of the sem. AAAHHHHHH, all tis talk bout studies, rite?

well, "BOO"!! say 'hello' to my nerdy side. Last but not least, wat the heck! i hav a 8am class tis time. -_-

anyways, juz recently discovered a console tat's reli reli coolllllllll!!

----> GUITAR HERO!! (watch gossip girl n u wil noe wat it is)

woohoo!! thank you God for creatin such greatness. lol

been in myer almost everyday for the past 2 wks queuein up to play, well, not actually queuein, we ended up hoggin the thing for like an hour. always only leavin when we hear a voice---->

" Ladies n gentlemen, Myer will be closin in 5 mins, we hope u had a pleasant day at myer"

u're rite..it was pleasant alrite..=D

yea, i sound rather pathetic, so can some kind person out there hu owns ps2, ps3 or xbox360 pls buy a guitar hero n provide me some entertainment?=) pretty please??

oh, n Happy bday to our dear yian kim!!~
i noe it's a bit late, but it's the thought tat counts rite?=P
(like our present?)

N another happy belated bday to tad song!! may your 21st be lovely..=)

Masuk hospital~

2008-02-02T05:35:00.000-08:00

Yea, tat's rite, ntg's wrong wif ur eyes..i did indeed 'masuk hospital' via the emergency dep..rmb the scenes in ER??

well, my entrance today wasn't quite tat dramatic or 'she's-gonna-die-type-scary'..BUTTTTTTTTTTTT, i did get to sit on my 1st ever wheel chair!!~Wo0ts!! (don't get me wrong, i'm not exactly tat excited to be in a wheelchair=S, but wat the heck..since i have the chance, might as well enjoy it rite??=) the luxury of not havin to walk for a while=P)

Story begins wif----->

Mwa..happily goin bbq in bekenu wif frens.....helpin ppl set up the bbq pit etc., lightin the charcoal..

& tat's about it..the only painless moments for the day..yiaksssssssssss!!

THEN..
some1 juz had to move the bbq pit to a slightly diff spot, juz a few, teeny-weeny centimetres away. I noticed all tat happening, but mebbe due to plain recklessness n mebbe a weee-bit of bird-brainness/stupidity, b4 i knew it..i managed to literally bbq my foot b4 i had any real food cooked..geezzzz..

I STEPPED INTO SUPER-DUPER, MEGA, GIGA, ULTRA HOT SAND/CHARCOAL(by then i couldn't differenciate wat was wat..so anyhows..) & burnt my foot..OUCH X 100000..believe me when i say it..IT'S SO BLOOOOOODY PAINFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the funny thing is, it's pretty weird coz instead of the sole, the top (izzit dorsal part??3 months of vacation killed my basic anatomy for the time being..but hav no fear, i promise to be a good dr next time, TRUST me..hehe) of my foot started to swell up n got covered wif HUMONGOUS blisters within a few hours..ALAMAK!! (i've nvr seen such big 1s b4, or mebbe they r boils instead of blisters, wil show the pics next time if any1 would like to hav a look =P)

n here i m at the ED, (i m pretty sure tat i got to the ED, but i somehow don feel the urgency..every1 was laid back n slowww), n saw fresh blood oozin out from a patient beside me..not a pretty sight. the amazin part is, after i came out from the treating room, i stil c the blood smeared on the floor. C?everything's reallllll slow, even the cleanin is slow....

Anyway, the medical assistant was reli nice tho, he cracked jokes (wasn't exactly hilarious but did the trick). the conversation below wif the MA made my day---->

MA: wa, kulit cantik tapi kena bakar sudah tak akan cantik lagi..
Me: Betul??!! Akan cantik lagi la lepas pulih=P
MA: U wait n c la.....
Me: HHHHAAAAA!!??betul??ada scar?Jadi akan hitam hitam??
MA: Oh, kalau makan kicap, akan jadi hitam la.
Me: Huh?? (wat the heck??)
MA: kalau makan air syrup hijau/ merah akan jadi merah/hijau lo....hahahahhaaha
Me: oh..tak apa..sekarang ada dermabrasion..=) (oh man, n i thought my foot was goin to be blacko or scarred forever..but CHOI!! touch wood..)

& yea..i can't leave my house for a whole week..boohoo T_T coz i can't walk n can't risk infection..BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Nevertheless, the bbq was stil enjoyable so 2 thumbs up for Hy..n the others hu helped prepare, ms n his sushi, his car, n daniel, for his jokes etc..(wil talk more bout bbq in the next entry n photos to come!!)

& last but not least, thanks a million to those hu cared n bothered to msg n ask bout my foot after everthin..AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH..the warmth of frenship (can feel tears wellin in my eyes, *sniff* *sniff* =P)

again, THANKS HEAPS, peeps!!=))

xoxo

My very 1st entry

2008-01-22T07:42:00.000-08:00

Hi, peeps!! Finally got a blog!!=)) after ages..
haha, got tis blog out of complete randomness & boredom. wat better way than tis to fill up my time durin summer hols??

for those of u hu r havin hols like i m..YAMMMMMMMMMMMSENGGGGGGGGGGGGG!! but u probably hav something betta' to do..
for those of u in uk..hmmmmm..u noe i mean U!!..well, happy studyin n don forget to shower me wif tons of presents next time since u guys r about to finish tourin Europe=P

Anyways, wil think of somethin to write soon!!

Ciaozzzzzz~